I just spent the best week and a half with the most amazing girl I've ever met and being away from her right now feels so much worse than I thought it would be. I knew being away from her was going to be hard, in addition to going back to work tomorrow. But... I just didn't fucking grasp just how hard this was going to be. I'm depressed as fuck. Once I get to PT in the morning, it probably won't be too terrible or it will at least not last forever, but the idea of going to be without Kelly is heartbreaking. And the idea of not seeing or talking to her at all tomorrow... is just unbearable.
Hence... the 24 oz I bought and am almost done with. I have bills and appointments and I'm all alone. Being apart from her is just tearing me apart. I didn't realize how hard it would be to be away from her.
Being with her was absolutely amazing. Since the second I stepped off the plane and saw her waiting for me at the gate. To saying goodbye this morning. She is still the same crazy girl I fell for all those years ago.
I just keep thinking about us being together. Her eyes, her touch, her kiss. I miss being in her arms, I miss holding her hand, I miss cuddling her at night. I miss everything about her. She balled her eyes out when we had to say goodbye and I can't get that image out of my mind. I just miss her so much.
I am more determined than ever to get her out here. I need her. And I think she needs me too. I hope she does. Because I am so much better with her than I am without her. I need her by my side. I am dreaming of the day that we are together again.
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