We're So Afraid

People are disappointing.

Everyone only ever gives small percentages of themselves to other people.

Everyone is damaged and broken from their past.

Everyone only ever trusts in small doses.

No one is willing to give themselves to another.

No one wants to be vulnerable.

No one is open to loving another.

Everyone is disappointing.

Everyone is scared.

Everyone is broken.

Everyone is lost.

Everyone is scared.

Everyone is scared.


We're all so fucking scared of trusting and loving and giving our heart to someone that we're only ever parts of ourselves. We saw we care about a person but never fully, never 100%, only in small doses. We're never ourselves with others. We're always scared of them seeing who we are and rejecting it. Or seeing who we are and hating it. Or seeing who we are and recoiling at it.

All we ever do is complain about how much we want to be loved but refuse to love in return. Refuse to give ourselves. Refuse to trust.

We are so scared of being embarrassed and rejected and unloved that we don't love and we don't accept and we aren't open. We're fucking scared.

Even when we love and get our heart broken, it's never 100% broken because we never put 100% in.

What is the point of connecting with another person if its never 100%? And it never fucking is.

"They're going to reject me. They're going to embarrass me. They're going to disappoint me. They're going to make me regret it. They're going to break my heart. They're going to prove to me that I'm unlovable."

We're so afraid that we are unlovable that we make ourselves unlovable.

We're so afraid that we're unlovable that we hold back the important parts of ourselves and then wonder why no one loves us.

We're so afraid that we are unlovable that we don't love.

We're so afraid.

We don't do anything at all...

We just sit back and exist.