Affected

So, I think this Caitlin thing is finally starting to affect me.

I was thinking about her last night. She was the first person I thought of today. And I have been irritated all day.

I keep thinking that this crap is harder than I thought it would be. What I'm going to do once we can talk again. And how I just want to say fuck it and send her a text.

But I can't. I said two weeks and I need to stand by my decision. Even if I have this big ass fear that our time apart is just making her more connected to other people. And making her less connected with me.

I don't know. I can't worry about it. If it was meant for her to be more connected with someone else, then two measly little weeks is not going to make a difference. If she likes me like she says, then I should be okay. Still, I worry. Not everyone is like me. Maybe her feelings for me aren't... strong, at all.

Wish I just knew now.

Only time will tell.