I'm done being treated like this by this weed head, former fat, loose disgusting skin, not even that attractive, kind of fat, super insecure, never going to get anywhere, female. I Tried. I actually fucking tried.
Its ridiculous. I looked past all the stuff that would be a No-Go for me. Because I liked this shit. I put up with chick I shouldn't have to because its not who I am. I put my feelings aside. I practically begged. I went against my instincts and the advice of my friends and tried so hard and put my feelings out there.
But this girl has been playing with me the entire time, hasn't she? I told her I liked her. I tried so hard not to let her push me away the way she said she might try to do. I let her hurt my fucking feelings and man...
I'm just not doing this shit anymore. I'm done with this bitch. I really am. And right now, I know that it is wrong to be saying bad thngs about a person... no matter who that person is. No matter what that person does, I should always take the high road but I am so hurt right now. Its ridiculous. She just doesn't give a fuck about me and I actually care enough about her to keep trying.
Whether I can or can not deal with this shit anymore... whether I am or am not strong enough to take this bull shit... I am not taking this bull shit anymore.
I can only be pushed so fucking far. And she pushed me straight into "I don't give a fuck," so I don't give a good God damn fuck.
I'm too old to be babying a fucking 29 year old woman. Grow the fuck up.
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