Its Just Bullshit

Why do people get involved with they are so fucked up themselves? Why do they put that burdon onto other people when they are not okay inside? When they are so messed up and broken? If you can't control your depression, then don't get involved with someone. If your life is fucked up, then don't get involved with someone. If you can't communicate or your first instinct is to be a bitch when you are hurt or your feelings get hurt, do not get involved with someone.

This is a basic fucking concept, people. If you are not ready for a relationship then do not get involved with someone. Don't say you are. Don't say you're working on this. Dude. If you're still working on things... if you're still working on trying to figure out how you can be with someone then you're not fucking ready. You're not fucking ready and don't do that to another fucking human being. A human being you claim to fucking care about. Because if you do then you obviously don't care as much about them as you claim. And you guys shouldn't be together in the first fucking place.

I'm just tired of it. I took a lot of time and energy... a lot of effort figuring myself out to the point where I can be with someone... where I can be alone and made a lot of mistakes getting there but I learned from it. So do not insult me by trying to be with me when you're not ready when I worked so hard to be ready for someone I can care about and be with.

Its just bullshit.

When are people going to stop being so selfish? Alright. I get that you can be lazy or reluctant to help your fucking self. Whatever. But don't say you want to be with someone... that you don't want to be alone... and the be the more selfish prick of all time?

Selfish? How is not wanting to deal with your own fucking problems selfish? Because when you cry and refuse to be alone by getting involved with someone, you drag that someone into your fucking shit. You drag them into your darkness and depression and whatever mess of shit you've got going on.

Stop being so fucking selfish. Seriously. Don't tell me you care about me and want to be with me and then turn around and get all upset and depressed and tell me that it has nothing to fucking do with me. It obviously does. If it doesn't, then we shouldn't fucking be involved.

So maybe you should fucking think about that and think about what you want and think about if that fucking makes sense. If that can actually work. If you want to be with me because you care then fucking act like you care about me. Caring about another person is not just about treating them nicely and doing what you can for them. Its about letting them in and letting them care about you. All aspects. In your brightest time and in your fucking darkest time.

Fucking think about that.

Gosh. I'm so sick of fucking people not understanding. Not getting it. Not fully comprehending what it means to be with someone and then wondering why it didn't fucking work out. Because you fucking fucked it up with your selfishness.

Fucking get a clue already.