What To Do

The important thing to remember when you're dating someone and when you're not exactly dating and even when you're just plain single is that you were a your own person before you ever met anyone and you have to remain being your own person. You have things that were important to you and you have to keep those things in mind. Just because you care about someone isn't going to change what you find important in your life.

This is my own advice and I still seem to be having quite a hard time listening to myself.

I really adore Trey. But I have to remember that its okay to be my own person.

I really love spending time with Trey. But we've spend every weekend together for the last month. And we will be spending the 14th to the 18th together next week.

I'm just wondering if I should cool it for this upcoming weekend? I haven't had real time for myself in weeks. And then money. Buying Kovu put me in quite the hole and I won't get paid again until the 15th... meaning, I'm broke as fuck until then. Considering that I only have $75, its going to be a difficult week or two.

But I really want to spend time with her. And I want to have fun with her.

I just also want to work out and sleep. And save some actual cash. I absolutely despise being broke.

I don't know what to do. I can't get enough. I honestly can't. I love spending time with her and being with her. And I love knowing that my day with start and end with her. But I also love my freedom. And being alone. And being able to Facebook and Tumblr for hours at a time. And I like watching whatever I want and having my space for myself.

But I love having her near me. I love cuddling close to her in bed. And kissing her. And her kissing me. I love hearing her voice. Feeling her touch. Her smell. I love looking over and seeing her on my bed or couch or desk chair.

There has to be a middle ground. There has to be able to get both.