Angry.

I'm angry and jealous and irrationally pissed. You're not mine. Will probably never be. But I don't like thinking of you belonging to someone else. Of you sharing yourself with someone else.

I want to be the person you tell your secrets and dreams to. I want to be the person that have the ability to put a smile on your face. I want to be yours and have the world know that you're mine.

I don't want to be insecure.

I just want things to be easy. Why do they have to be so difficult? Why can't you just realize how things are supposed to be instead of making shit so fucking hard.

Its making me sad now. Ugh. This is never going to happen. I just want to yell at you and tell you how stupid you're being. There's a way things are supposed to be and you're just going against it. Like you're against us being happy together.

I don't know how to stop being angry. I don't even know why I'm angry.

So what if I'm alone. I've never thought that was a bad thing. So what if I don't have someone who cares about me in a special way. So what if the only person I'm living for is myself. So what if I can't have the girl that makes me crazy and happy and jealous and excited and so much more all at the same time. If I can't even explain why I want her then why the fuck do I want her? Why should I have her.

UGH. I don't even know what I'm talking about now. This has to be the period thing happening and I have way too many negative feelings going on in side me to control the depression. Now I'm all sad when I knew this was going to happen. I just didn't want to believe it would.

Right. You'll get over it. The sun will still rise tomorrow and you still have class and work all day. Nothing is going to change because of how you're feeling now so just put it aside and forget. Who cares if you don't get to be happy like everyone else.