Confused.

I don't know when it happened but now I don't ever want to be apart from you.

I know - I'm not ready for a hardcore, serious relationship. But I want to build one. I want to build it with you.

Thinking of us not being together scares me.

I want to open up. I want to tell you thinks. I don't want you to reject me or judge you. I don't want to push you away.

I don't know how to pull you closer.

I get nervous trying to be the person I want to be.

But not being her is making things worse.

I don't know how to be open. I want to try.

I don't know hot to be honest. I want to learn.

I want to tell you everything. But I think you won't believe me.

If I can't get you to believe the small things how can I get you to believe the big things?

Actions speak louder than words. I'm afraid my actions will be too much. I'm afraid you'll think I'm pushing and decide I'm not right.

I'm afraid that you won't like the me you see.

I'm afraid I'm not enough.

I'm afraid my fears will be too much.

I'm afraid you'll reject all the parts of me so I only offer up the small ones.

I want to change.

I want you to realize I'm changing.

I want you to like the changes.