Hard to believe but with Trey, is seriously feels that way. There is like never a full moment. Oh my gosh. I wish I wasn't so tired so I can properly describe how fucking amazing this person is.
I've definitely never met anyone like Trey before but it feels like I've known her for months already. Maybe even years. Because we connect so much. The conversation has been so good and interesting over text and facebook but when Trey came down to visit on Sunday is was the most fun I've had in two years. Probably even longer, so be true. I've never wanted to be near someone quite like this before. I like adore Trey. Like seriously. From the fact that Trey is genderqueer to the fact that she gets super nervous and anxious about things.
I just keep seeing her face. Last time. Hanging out and just talking was great. She watched me talk and listen and it was fucking great. And then we make it back here and she gets me heart pounding. When I finally kissed her and everything just felt so good. Holding her. The feel of her skin. So damn good. And then the sex was fucking unbelievable. And saying goodbye was so difficult but I knew it would be the last time I saw her again. Soon. Not soon enough but definitely not too soon from now.
I know I should be worried and freaking out about getting close to anyone ever again. I know I should keep in mind that she has a complicated, troubled past and that I really don't know if this person will hurt me but I'm already thinking... trusting that she won't hurt me.
I know everyone has their flaws, but I honestly think that when I realize what Trey's are that is won't matter. Having so much faith in someone is so not like me. This person has such a strange affect on me.
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